I'm just one day away from my big trip to Europe.
Everything is packed and ready to go. Everything is paid for and booked. Just a few last minute details here and there, but nothing major.
I'm beyond excited! It feels surreal that I'm even going in the first place. I've been counting down the days and planning away, and now it's HERE.
To me, it still feels like one of those things that you put on your bucket list or see in books and movies, but you never actually get to go.
And I AM! That's still sinking in...
But, as the trip draws near, I find myself worrying that when I come back, everything is going to be different. That the life I left behind will no longer exist. Will what I find on the other side be greater than what I left in the first place?
My friends will find new friends and new routines.
Work will shift while I'm away, they'll find others to fill in where I'd usually step up.
My dog will forget me.
Ridiculous things, I know.
I joked with one of my best friends the other day while we were out to dinner.
"We're going to change, but you have to remember that you're going to change, too," she told me.
That was a strange, but powerful thought.
I am going to change.
Hopefully I'll be more inspired and want to create more.
I realize it's not like I'm moving away and I won't be gone for months. I'm just going for a short blip of time.
Maybe it's that I watch too many TV shows and I've seen how this goes.
The lead girl goes away for a short period and comes back to see that everything around her has changed. Sure, it could just be travel broadening her horizons and changing her perspective. Or two weeks goes by a lot faster and things happen in the blink of an eye when you're not in front of them every day.
Or perhaps it's that when I come back, I'll only have a couple more weeks at home and then I'm moving out.
Things are changing. It's in the air.
But, it's good.
For now, I'll put one foot in front of the other, grab my passport and head to London.
That's all for now,
Shelby
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